Fresh Air Fund not only needs host families, donations, and children every year, FAF also needs camp counselors to staff the summer camps every year. The Fresh Air Fund and Abraham Harrison LLC reached out and over 120 bloggers and Twitterers responded to the call.  We thank you all very much and we appreciate all of your hard work on Fresh Air Fund’s behalf!  Much obliged!

1. Fresh Air Fund Looking for Help via Three Rivers Episcopal
2. Hiring Camp Counselors for This Summer! via The Abraham & Harrison Blogger blog
3. Fresh Air Fund via All Said and Done
4. Fresh Air Fund via Reflective Ponderings
5. banner via Spectrum, Apex College
6. Now Hiring: Fresh Air Fund Summer Camp Staff via Assertagirl
7. Old-School Fun via Half the Sins of Mankind
8. Fresh Air Fund Looking for Summer ‘09 Counselors via Best View in Brooklyn
9. Wednesday, February 11, 2009 via Ghana for a While
10. Fresh Air Fund, Non Profit, Now Accepting Applications from Gen Y for Summer Jobs via The Orrell Group
11. Fresh Air Fund Needs Counselors for Summer 2009! via Chris Abraham
12. The Fresh Air Fund via Brilliance or Madness
13. Hiring Camp Counselors for This Summer! via Chris Abraham Social Media PR & Blogging Expert
14. Hiring For Camp Counselor Jobs via Chris Abraham’s Weblog
15. The Fresh Air Fund! via Around the World in beautiful Shoes
16. the fresh air fund JOBS via Around the World in beautiful Shoes
17. Information via Because I’m Cool Like That…
18. Fresh Air Fund Now Accepting Applications for Counselors via Danny Fisher
19. Fresh Air Fund via Chen Chow
20. Hiring Camp Counselors for This Summer! via April 24th Blogging Basics
21. Hiring Camp Counselors for This Summer via My Blog
22. Hiring Camp Counselors for This Summer! via Chris Abraham
23. Hiring Camp Counselors for This Summer via Chris Abraham Ceci N’est Pas Un Blog
24. Help inner-city kids enjoy a summer vacation via Christifideles
25. Fresh Air Fund and saying no to buracracy via My Time in Cape Verde with Peace Corps
26. Hiring Camp Counselors for This Summer! via Official Colexica Blog
27. The Fresh Air Fund Needs Counselors for the Summer of ‘09 via Make it Happen
28. Senator John Cornyn;Texas’ Embarrasment! via Dicky’s Doodles &Scribbles
29. Michael Steele; The Putney Swope Of The GOP via Dicky’s Doodles &Scribbles
30. From the Mailbag: Fresh Air Fund Needs Counselors for Summer 2009! via Epluribus Media
31. Rethinking Fresh Air via Rethinking Life
32. The Fresh Air Fund: Needs Counselors for the Summer of ‘09! via Faithful Progressive
33. Your Money: The Fresh Air Fund via Cute, Cuddly, and Cannibalistic
34. Hiring Camp Counselors for This Summer! via Fresh Air Fund
35. Hiring Camp Counselors for the Summer via Fresh Air Fund Blog
36. Do Something Good: The Fresh Air Fund via Gingerbread Latte: The E! True Hollywood Story
37. 2009: THE FRESH AIR FUND: VOLUNTEERS NEEDED via Tom Glover’s Hamilton Scrapbook
38. 2/4/09 PRESS RELEASE: Fresh Air Fund via Greenwich Roundup: This Just In ……
39. From Ashton Kutcher to Soup: Super Bowl Giving via Have Fun Do Good
40. Fresh Air Fund via The Common Room
41. Fresh Air via The Hosanna Road
42. Link via Whole
43. Fresh Air Fund via Rickety Contrivances of Doing Good
44. Wednesday, February 11, 2009 via In the Direction of my Daydreams
45. The Fresh Air Fund via About.com Internships
46. A Peal via Jakartass
47. Wednesday, February 4, 2009 via Happy at HFC
48. The Fresh Air Fund Needs Counselors via Jewels of My Heart
49. The Fresh Air Fund via Following My Heart
50. THE FRESH AIR FUND 2009 via Whykay’s Happenings
51. Fresh Air Fund via Keokuk Radio News Blog
52. Kill Jill Turns One! :D via Kill Jill Goes to College
53. Volunteering= Good for the Soul via La Petite Fashionista
54. The Fresh Air Fund Wants You! via I Say Hella
55. Hiring Camp Counselors for This Summer! via Memes.org
56. Looking For A Summer Job? Give Back! via Micah Jesse Blog
57. via Mind Warriors
58. Fresh Air Fund Needs Counselors for Summer 2009! via Blah Blah Babycakes
59. Fresh Air Fund via Money Amulet
60. Philanthropy: The Fresh Air Fund via Movable Hype
61. The Fresh Air Fund via Beyond the Clouds
62. Fresh Air via Neringa’s Corner
63. The Hot Club of San Francisco takes audience to a simpler time via Ocolly.com
64. Make a difference this summer: leave home via Our pdx Network
65. Monday Afternoon Dept of Failures & Such via Page One
66. Long overdue… via Fijate que…Life of an El Salvador RPCV
67. My Favorite Links via Peace Corps Diary: Botswana 2008
68. Link via Pine Ridge Reflections
69. Fresh Air Fund Needs Counselors: Summer’09 via Pro Equestrian World Edition
70. Fresh Air Fund Needs Counselors: Summer’09 via REVISTA PROEQUESTRIAN ROMANIA
71. Get a Job! The Fresh Air Fund via Punk Rock
72. Fresh Air Fund Looking for Counselors via Ned Resnikoff
73. Hot fun in the city… via RoadTurn: Reflections on Life
74. Hiring Camp Counselors for This Summer! via The Russell Pike Blog
75. Banner via Salamu Kenya!
76. FRESH AIR FUND COUNSELORS via Samotalis
77. Make a Difference – Support the Fresh Air Fund! via In The South, We’re Not Crazy…We’re Eccentric!
78. The Fresh Air Fund via Shamazing
79. Hiring Camp Counselors for This Summer! via SMNR Social Media News Room
80. Wanted: Counselors who enjoy Fresh Air via Star City Harbinger
81. FYI – summer camp counselors needed via Steph in Burkina Faso
82. Volunteer as a Fresh Air Fund Counselor via System 13
83. Banner via Tangocherie
84. Link via Livin’ la Vida Loca: Peace Corps DR!
85. Sure, I’ll Support Your Camp, As Long As It Isn’t Jesus Camp via The Political Blog For Cynical Millennials
86. “Fresh Air” for Children via The Buddha Diaries
87. LINK via Third Mom
88. Fresh Air Fund is looking for a few good counselors via Left of Centre
89. Tweet via Blog Business World
90. Who says there are no jobs? Get a summer one! With Fresh Air Fund. http://tinyurl.com/6qkwwp via Young Manhattanite
91. Tweet via Lindsey Pollak
92. Tweet via Thoughts from Meggie Poo
93. Tweet via Deb’s Search and Rescue Stories
94. Fresh Air Fund Job Opportunities via Volunteer Boston: Get On Your Feet
95. Fresh Air Fund via Winny & B
96. Fresh Air Fund Camp Counselor Opportunities via Boarding School Blog
97. The Fresh Air Fund via Novel Inspiration
98. Camp Out & Change Lives! via Bare Essentials
99. The Fresh Air Fund needs Summer Counselors via Blogging for Business
100. banner via Bloody Brilliant
101. Counselors for 09 Summer Camps Required via Cop Recruiter
102. Change a Young Life this Summer via Everyday Giving Blog
103. The Fresh Air up There via Laura in Botswana
104. HIRING CAMP COUNSELORS FOR THE SUMMER! via Peter Geisheker’s Small Business Marketing Blog
105. For the kids… via Golfgal
106. Banner via Gotham Unleashed
107. Fresh Air Fund Is Hiring Counselors via Granby 01033
108. banner via Jewish Donor Blog
109. Doesn’t Everyone Deserve a Breath of Fresh Air? via Mamanista
110. The Fresh Air Fund is Looking for Camp Counselors via Math Me Thinks
111. So…what are YOU doing this summer? Here’s an idea…that pays! via The Online Degree Dorm Room
112. Fresh Air Fund Needs Camp Counselors via Outskirts:Life and Times in Charlottesville
113. General Discussion Message Board via Ram Nation
114. THE FRESH AIR FUND IS SEEKING COUNSELORS FOR THE SUMMER OF ‘09 via Republica Update
115. Summer jobs with Fresh Air Fund (now accepting applications) via Secrets of The Job Hunt
116. Fresh Air Fund Counsellors via Servant of Chaos
117. A Breath of Fresh Air via TMT
118. Fresh Air Fund Needs Camp Counselors via The Diva Network
119. The World Needs Camp Counselors via Thoughts from Meggie Poo
120. SUMMER OPPORTUNITY: FRESH AIR FUND via Writing on the Mall
121. Hiring Camp Counselors for This Summer! via The Xyience Diet Resource
122. Fresh Air Fund via Yoga and Judaism Center
123. Fresh Air Fund Needs Counselors for Summer 2009! via Young Manhattanite

My clients and I have found that building apps, widgets, and online communities is not nearly enough — it is really and truly about the network, the promotion, the publicity, the advertising, the marketing, the salesmanship, and the public relations outreach. Well, Robin Grant from We Are Social makes a smashing argument that there is a huge gap between being a toymaker and getting your toys into the hands of children,  Build it and they won’t necessarily come:

There’s a phenomenon whereby normally intelligent people at both digital and traditional agencies decide that people will embrace their new widget or app simply because they’ve built it. It’s as if the Internet were a giant cornfield in Iowa and the mere presence of yet another branded widget or app is enough to get thousands of people clicking.

My buddy Mike Obraitis of Telecom Management used to be a toymaker and he and his partner made toys.  Thing is, there’s an infinity between designing a toy and having it played with, including getting your toys sold in Wal-Mart and making sure kids know about your toy and that their parents buy it for them. All of this requires mad brand promotional skillz.

Long story short, if you brand it they will come!

I am trying really hard to get back into running.  I love to run! Instead of being tempted by a Forerunner 305 or 405, I am using my Nokia N95 8GB in association with its GPS and Sports Tracker — and I love it! It is everything I need and it is also my phone and my media center and my podcast player and also a camera and video player. If you want to see my mad attempt at a daily run/walk, please feel free to stalk me and my online workout. Weather for Arlington, VA, 22203: 35°F, Rain (Via Jockular).

Activity	Running
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Distance	9.12 mi
Speed (max)	13.3 mph
Pace (max)	2min 48s per mi
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Matt and I rushed this post tonight. I received the email three hours ago, IMed Matt, and we got it out now. I love blogging for this. I hope you enjoy this new post, Pepsi Apologized to Me For Its Suicide Ads:

Pepsi Apologized to Me For Its Suicide Ads
A close-up look at how the marketer is handling fallout from its controversial German ads

This week, PepsiCo got into hot water with more than a few folks after some suicide-themed ads many found offensive were brought to light. Here’s how they’re using social media to apologize to consumers—including me.

I received an email from B. Bonin Bough of PepsiCo, @boughb on Twitter, responding to my tweet about the recent post that Matt Creamer wrote a couple days ago, “Pepsi Opens a Vein of Controversy With New Suicide-Themed Ads”, about some ads that were run here in Germany in a lifestyle mag—ads Pepsi says it won’t run again after they received heavy criticism all over the web.

I’ll excerpt the first part of the email from Mr. Bough, who holds the title of director-social and emerging media and is based at Pepsi’s Purchase, N.Y. campus:

I saw your tweet and I just wanted to make sure I responded personally. We agree this creative is totally inappropriate; we apologize and please know it won’t run again. Also, thanks for the feedback and the Digg, it is important to discuss these types of issues.

My best friend committed suicide and this is a topic very close to my heart. So again I offer my deepest apologies.

Feel free to follow-up via twitter to me – @boughb or Huw – @huwgilbert or respond to this email.

Thanks, Bonin

I know you all think I am going to mock Bonin, but I won’t. I think this was a very bold and risky maneuver and worthy of praise rather than a tarring and feathering. And his outreach to me, a nobody, was accomplished within two days. When I replied to Bonin, asking if I might be allowed to post his email, he replied back that I could post his email but to try to “treat it kindly.” I hope I am.

I don’t think that Bonin knew that I blog for AdAge or that I know a bit about how the marketer is surprised about how well-traveled the ads have been. The old we-didn’t-think-anyone-here-would-see-it approach. Well, that’s the Internet for you. Someone passed along the scans of the PepsiMax ad, “One is a Very Very Lonely Calorie,” to the alert gang here at AdAge.

Within two days of tweeting, I received a note from @tweetmeme, a sure sign that my tweet had gone memetic (and that I had played at least a bit part in the mad traffic to the AdAge post as well as the resulting 40 comments.)

Here’s how fast and furious social media works. The article was posted on AdAge at 4:36 PM EST on December 2nd. I read it and Tweeted at 6:16 PM EST the same day. And then I received said email from Mr. Bough at 5:21 PM on December 4. The lesson here is that social media has eyes everywhere and the network to make sure that advertisers can no longer hide stuff in niche markets. There is a word in intelligence about just this thing, and it relates to messaging and propaganda: backwash. Social media makes backwash inevitable. Here’s another one from Intelligence: blowback. Backwash leads to blowback.

There’s no way to isolate this kind of advertisement. And there is an inverse proportion between how badly you want your ad to remain niche and the sensationalism surrounding its discovery. It’s a really obvious point, but one still clearly worth stating: The internet makes it impossible for any marketer to control which geographies and demographics see any particular communication. You can’t even really control what media it appears in. Think you’re creating an edgy print ad that will only be seen in a German magazine? Think again. In the blink of an eye, your ad is on the web. You know, the world wide one. And all kinds of people are pissed off.

What I like about what “Bough, Bonin {PEP}” did here is that he responded almost immediately, rather personally, and opened himself up to us social media mavens. Bravo! Full marks. Another thing I like about his apology is that there is a very good chance that I am being played, that Mr. Bough is playing reverse psychology on me. Yes, he readily approved my posting of this message when I asked, which leads me to believe that the very act of clicking on the post right now is just going to help PepsiCo with an amazingly-savvy viral marketing campaign for PepsiMax.

I have become a big fan of No Agenda, a self-indugent weekly podcast featuring the podfather of podcasting, Adam Curry, and the genius tech savant, John C. Dvorak. They spend about one and a half hours-a-week talking shit about what’s going on in their minds. And their minds, experience, and shamelessness are brilliant listening. I also listen to Dvorak’s Tech 5 and Curry’s Daily Source Code. I can spend hours listening to these guys bullshit and go back and forth and I love it. I do spend hours listening to them every week. I learn quite a lot from them and I am really willing to share their craziness — their madness — with you, my readers. Give them a listen! If you don’t love it, you don’t get it. I admit that you might not like it at first; however, subscribe to the Curry.com total feed. You’ll get the Daily Source Code, Cranky Geeks, No Agenda, and other good stuff.

I am sitting here in Berlin, Germany, listening to NPR on 104.1 FM (yes, we have National Public Radio on-tap in Berlin, it is true), and I am rooting for Barack Obama. I have to admit that I voted Republican in the last two elections, in 2000 and 2004, because I was appalled by both Gore and Kerry. I was passionate about Bill Clinton during his eight years in office and preferred anything to Gore or Kerry, to be honest. That said, I want Barack Obama to win because the world wants Barack Obama to win.

After church yesterday, I got to talking to my fellow parishioners and they want Barack Obama. These are not your traditional European communists you hear about, they’re devout Christians — born again — who are probably considered pretty conservative in the context of Europe. However, in the context of America, even a right wing wingnut European is still relatively liberal by American standards.

When Berliners look at Barack Obama, they don’t see someone who will set race riots afire, they don’t see someone who will turn America into a Marxist-Leninist stronghold, they see a man who is sophisticated, education, trained, has a brain in his head, went to the best schools, has explored the world, cares about civil rights, and who will most likely be willing to span the broken bridges across the Atlantic to Europe and Russia and try his best to rebuild them and begin to regain the trust, admiration, and even envy that much of the world had fifty-years ago.

To them and to me, Barack Obama will be able to return the United States to the hands of the rational. A United States with a better separation between Church and State. Maybe even a country in which Jesus Christ is the co-pilot and not the pilot any more. Where saner, more peaceful, minds prevail. A nation willing to put away its herald and sword, stop with the Christian Crusades, the preemptive strikes, the unilateral military conquests, and the obsession with being Exceptional. Exceptionalism is the most dangerous aspect of the George W Bush and Neocon White House.

“When the United States looks abroad, it does so from an assumed position of moral and spiritual strength. For as long as the United States has existed, a perceived sense of its exceptionalism has permeated the way that Americans view the rest of the world . . . this view has been reinforced by the material reality of US economic and military strength. The essence of American exceptionalism is a celebration of the uniqueness and special virtue of the United States. It rests on the belief that the United States has a special role to play in the world, and unique qualities to bring to this role . . . The roots of the concept stem from the Puritan vision of America as a ‘shining city upon a hill’, a society designed to serve as a moral example to mankind.”

The idea that America is any better-suited than any other nation to lead based on some sort of Divine Inheritance or Plan is ludicrous and very insane, especially when no one else in the entire world agrees. I am a big fan of Mike Signer’s concept of exemplarism:

“Exemplarism is the principle that the United States could best serve the spread of liberal democracy by being an enviable example to the world—the shining light on the hill, the beacon. Being a good example requires strengthening the institutions that assure individual liberties, the rule of law, and the prosperity born of industry and commerce. Adherents to exemplarism would find themselves in agreement with Kant’s principle of noninterventionism into the affairs of other nations.”

Telling yourself and everybody around you how amazing, brilliant, noble, moral, and generous you are when you’re the biggest and meanest and best-armed and best-outfitted man in the room is hubristic and kind of pathetic. Delusional, actually, and certainly not the best way for a man — or a country — to be. America is kind of being an International douchebag.

I must admit that I have a special weakness for exemplarism’s belief in the “principle of noninterventionism into the affairs of other nations” even if you don’t like the way other nations are running their households. There is a certain amount of independence and internal liberty associated with being sovereign. Sovereignty, to me, is holy. To me, exporting culture, policy, morals, or any concept of character or politick is poor form, especially when it is at the tip of a sword.

What scares me about American Exceptionalism is that it allows just about any behavior based on the premise that we can do no wrong. That any move we take to help is helpful, that any gift we have to give is welcome, that any feeling a foreign nation could feel is grateful.

When America thinks the entire world is so “insane” and “drunk” that only America cane make the important, sober, choices, then it is in fact that America is the Nation suffering from mental illness. You know what they say, right? If you think the entire world has gone mad, that the entire world is against you, that the entire world is violent and full of unrest, the unappealing truth might just be that you’re severely paranoid and might be the most mentally ill in the room. There is no way that the entire planet is conspiring again the United States — unless, of course, we have gone one step too far.

I am told that we have gone one step too far; however, Europe and most of the world is willing to let bygones be bygones because we’re loved by the world, at least mostly. Berliners no longer trust America but they’re willing to give Barack Obama a chance — they’re not willing to give John McCain a chance, sadly.

They see in John McCain an angry, malicious, foolish man — which is fine; however, in Sarah Palin, they don’t even seen some harmless vice presidential candidate, they see a very dangerous indicator that the McCain/Palin ticket will more assuredly take the United States to an even darker, more jingoistic, more conservative, descent into fascism.

When I tell people these things, especially on Twitter, I get the strangest response, even from the Democrats: “America is the best country on earth.” “America may not be perfect but there is no better country on earth.” “I am proud to be an American — I am patriotic, surely.” Alternately, I also get, “I think we have gone too far as a nation — we have descended into a self-centered feeding frenzy rife with elbows and short-sighted land-grabbing.”

To me, I am somewhere in the middle. I love the foundation of the Nation. I love the literature, the heart, the soul, the worlds, the music, the history, the compassion, the Faith, the persistence, the curiosity, and confidence, the optimism, and even the cocksureness! I love the Constitution and the Bill of Rights and the Declaration of Independence. There is a reason why many nations worldwide have patterned and even plagiarized our Constitution, to be sure.

Hell, Europe loves the idea of America! Basically, we are a nation that, in its source code, has embraced all that is liberté, égalité, fraternité; however, the world had not been able to enjoy our uniquely American version of liberty, equality, and fraternity for all the foaming at the mouth and the bared fangs! There is a fear that this mad-dog may have gone too far into its rabies and is too far gone.

In Barack Obama, they see that maybe what America has been doing for the last eight years as been a sort of postpartum, post-911, depression. That the Nation, all big and clumsy, hung over, and feeling a little sick, is finally reemerging from darkness into light — luckily, just in time, when the world needs a leader in the community and not just a dangerous paranoiac who lives in the dilapidated house at the edge of town.

The rest of the world has not given up on us as Americans or as America. Have we as a nation give up on ourselves?

Leo Bottary, SVP at Mullen, asked a pretty great question over on LinkedIn, What motivated you to learn about social media?  I took a stab at answering in my own way (via Marketing Conversation):

I came to social media PR the other way around. I have been online since the world of the bulletin board systems (BBS) and the Well, later in the 90s. I have been a deep member of social networks forever. Anyway, in 2003 I became a social media marketer at New Media Strategies and then moved onto Edelman.

Now, I am a social media native-speaker learning more and more PR and marketing practices.

So, I guess my question is, what motivated you to wait so long? Social media and online social networks have been alive and well since at least the early 80s in the form of message boards, forums, USENET, MUDs, MOOs, and IRC.

My fear is is that there will be loads of PR practitioners who will only invest in social media and online community because they have to and not because they’re passionate about it. I think this will all change when people stop making as much of a big deal about online social media and just take the mad communications and relationship skills and passions and just map them onto another forum: the Internet.

Why can’t PR practitioners do this? Short answer: “we” don’t consider all of those voices and all of those people and all of that text to be connected to real, powerful, and passionate people.

Leo, thanks so much for asking this question. I don’t know if I answered but I am happy to have thought through it.

So, what motivated you to learn about social media? Also, what motivated you to go into marketing or PR, if that’s what you do with yourself these days?

Here’s Leo’s complete question-in-full:

From: Leo Bottary

Date: August 11, 2008

To: Chris Abraham

Status: Viewed

What motivated you to learn about social media?

I don’t believe you can serve today’s public relations client without a working understanding of social media and the broader discipline of digital communication. Why should clients pay hundreds of dollars an hour for PR-lite? As PR professionals, it’s our responsibility to understand all the relationship tools at our disposal, not just some of them.

I got started because I felt like a fish out of water when the subject came up during a client/prospect meeting. And of course, I’m learning every day. What motivated you?

I guarantee that this will freak your shit out!

I am a Twitter Addict, I have to admit, and it is for many reasons! Why?  Well, because Twitter is an important and immediate connection I have to both my friends and colleagues, from anywhere and any time. And, Twitter is also an oracle to me! When I have a question or need advice or a recommendation, I just “ask Twitter,” tapping my 1,304 followers for their experience, hope, and joy. Well, another reason I love Twitter is because of their “promiscuous” API, which drives innovation. One such innovation is the Twittering Teddy, which is the brain “child” of the gang over at The Advance Guard, Steve Coulson and C.C. Chapman, et al, on behalf of the gang over at My Home 2.0.

Partying on Alexander Platz, originally uploaded by Chris Abraham.

I escaped the mad and mad-making (and shame-making) cleaning of my apartment to Alexanderplatz, which is famous in Berlin. On a Saturday evening, it is also popular as a place to listen to live music, in the background, as well as drink some beer, laugh your ass off, take some pictures, and enjoy the relatively warm weather.

OK, in honor of the passing of Gary Gygax, the creator of Dungeons & Dragons, I am coming out. I, Chris Abraham, played D&D from 6th grade until I was in 9th grade, although it might have been longer. I was a Dungeon Master, I held games at my house, I owned all the books and spent long evenings with graph paper and a pencil, designing pre-Internet virtual worlds. I owned many many multi-sided dice. The first BASIC program I made with my IBM AT was a program to roll characters and also roll dice. When we tired of D&D and joined JROTC, we moved on to a game called RECON, but it wasn’t the same. Nor was Wizardy or Adventure, two early attempts to replicate D&D on the computer and on early minicomputers and archaic networks. Why am I waxing nostalgic? Well, Gary Gygax passed away and I want to come out and be proud that I, Chris Abraham, am an alumnus of Dungeons and Dragons. Here’s an amazing remembrance from the LA Times:

Fond memories of the ‘Dungeon’
Remembering his days as a part of the game cult created by Gary Gygax.
March 7, 2008

Iwas so young when I started playing “Dungeons & Dragons” that I assumed Gary Gygax, the game’s creator, wasn’t real — just as I figured there’d never been a Walt Disney or burger chefs named McDonald. When I finally realized Gygax indeed lived in Lake Geneva, Wis., near the post office box address listed on every “D&D” book, I pictured him in a mansion filled with piles of gold and women in metal bikinis. More insane, I deeply believed these outfits would be practical for swimming.

But when Gygax, who conducted a weekly game up until the end, died on Tuesday, he was not rich, despite my best efforts from fourth through eighth grade. And in part, I realize, that is my fault. Because unlike the paunchy, white-ponytailed Gygax, who was not afraid to let his geek flag fly, I have spent the last 20 years avoiding “D&D” because I was ashamed. Gygax influenced my childhood more than any writer, filmmaker or teacher, and I turned my back on him. I am a traitor to my people. Luckily, they are among the few peoples I can beat up.

Sure, I talk about “D&D” a lot, but it’s with defensive self-mockery, as if my nerdishness was some larva stage that I had cocooned out of. Into a butterfly of “Shaft”-like smoothness. That’s what a few TV appearances will fool you into thinking.

But this week, I had my old “D&D” books sent to me, and proudly put them on my bookshelves. Paging through them, I realized they are the best books I own: detailed, weird, creative, smart, funny — encyclopedic lists of rules for spells, monsters, gods, weapons, trade and career advancement. “D&D” exceeded any single mythology; it embraced Camelot’s knights, Dante’s devils, dinosaurs and the Yeti. And I still think the line-drawing of the succubus is totally hot.

But reclaiming my “D&D” pride is not going to be an easy process.

As soon as I started reading Gygax’s fantastical compendiums as a kid, I realized how mundane non-gamers’ lives were. They lived in flat world, where all the dice had only six sides. We had imagination and a leader who never talked down to us, even if he did sound like Yoda. “This work is written as one Dungeon Master equal to another,” Gygax wrote in “The Dungeon Master’s Guide.” “Pronouncements there may be, but they are not from ‘on high’ as respects your game.” My “D&D” friends and I loved his hippie-geek insanity. We were mixing theater with math and debate and other after-school activities that didn’t involve helping people in the community. That was for nerds.

The game allowed you to navigate the mayhem of adolescence through fantasy — perhaps even including the kind that might lead a boy, just for a little while, to play a female character. “That’s cool, right? She’s like a half-elf, like a hot half-elf, just to mix it up. And she’s got spells. And a flagon of mead. In case anyone is interested in that.” Usually, though I was a magic-user. I was such a nerd that my nerd fantasy was simply to be an even bigger nerd.

But the true thrill of the game was that it made you feel smart. You constantly had to consult actuarial tables in the back of the dozens of “D&D” books to determine the results of a battle, convert currency or figure out how many kilograms your character could carry. Everything was documented in such detail that in the event of a nuclear holocaust, Gygax had left survivors a complete guide to replicate society. A society like a Renaissance Faire.

Gygax also expanded my vocabulary, though many of the words meant the same thing. Wench, courtesan, harlot, strumpet — all interesting townspeople a nice preteen Paladin could meet.

The thing is, I didn’t meet many townspeople. Like most “D&D” players, I read the books, learned the rules, created tons of characters, mapped out dungeons, even subscribed to Dragon magazine — but I almost never played the actual game. Because — as I was reminded in 2003 when I played it with Elijah Wood of “Lord of the Rings” — the game itself sucks. It’s slow and silly and entails an endless amount of prodding by the Dungeon Master to force players to step into the traps he spent all weekend devising — but that will, of course, not kill your favorite character because if it did you’d never play with him again.

“Wasn’t someone always saying, ‘No, seriously, guys’ the whole time? … And then someone would get mad,” said Matt Selman, who writes the Nerd World blog for time.com, when we started to reminisce.

Exactly. We didn’t spend our time playing as much as fantasizing about playing in a fantasy world. Which is why “Dungeons & Dragons” is the best game ever invented. I’m pretty sure Gygax knew that. And I bet he knew that someday I’d grow up enough to put his books back on my shelf.

jstein@latimescolumnists.com